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Title: Life Story
Type: Highly Confidential

heart broken;

Saturday, February 28, 2009/ 10:48:00 PM

the first question when you saw 'Dar..

"Dayah nangis tak?"

your first word when you saw me..

"sorry.."

tell me, babe.

whose heart is not broken

to see their loved ones lying helplessly

in the hospital?

i've seen your best and worst.

but this?

it just pains me to see.

i cant help but just look at you.

so weak yet trying to put a smile across our faces.

i was upset, confused, lost.

when i set myself deep into your eyes,

it sadden me even more.

those soft eyes trying to ensure me that you're fine.

but you're still so weak.

i may not have said how much you mean to me.

but hey, words are just words..

you know how much i love and care for you, bestfriend.

it shows, isnt it.

but alhamdulillah..

you fractured your nose only

and not other parts of your body..

p/s: get well soon, sweetheart.

you're always in my prayers.

Labels: friendship ; bestfriend

dont leave;

Friday, February 27, 2009/ 11:17:00 AM

please be around..

though i know we havent spend much time together lately.

please be around..

remember what you had promised me?

please be around..

cause i dont know what i'll do w/o you.

please be around..

cause you dont know how much i love and care for you.

please be around..

i dont wanna be alone without having you by my side.

please.. just be around.

*shattered*

please be safe, bestfriend.

dont leave me just as yet.

i promise i'll visit you tomorrow..

Labels: i cant feel my heart beating anymore..

freedom;

Thursday, February 26, 2009/ 12:11:00 PM

Y A A A A H H H . . . !

common test's officially OVER!

PERIOD.

*grins*

you manage to encode

the way i handle things..

Labels: common test.

broken hearted girl;

Wednesday, February 25, 2009/ 11:11:00 PM

i dont want..

a BROKEN HEART.

- i dont wanna play the broken hearted girl.

R A N D O M . . .

its too complicated..

you have a very simple mindset.

its not helping me..

dear you,

you just couldnt be bothered, do you?

Labels: lost

dreams;

/ 9:05:00 PM

-spot the name.. (:

they said..

when we keep having the same dream,

it's bound to happen.

but what if..

we have a different dream,

of the same person?

what does that means?

l o s t !

last paper tomorrow.

i dont know if im suppose to be elated.

haa!

hockey training

resumes this week.

p/s: i love you much,

ALONG, ANGA & BUSU..

-you know who you are

do you hear me?

im talking to you.. (:

Labels: lost

zombified;

Tuesday, February 24, 2009/ 11:13:00 PM

exams or common test period.

zombified.

lack of beauty sleep.

walking zombies..

p/s: happy 9teen birthday,

HENDRA DERMAWAN!

(:

-back to mugging.

AGAIN.

Labels: common test.

random;

/ 11:30:00 AM

something new is about to happen.

the past is still haunting.

lost.

please catch me when i fall..

p/s:i hope you'll be there

at the end of the day..

-back to mugging

Labels: lost

persevere;

Monday, February 23, 2009/ 10:44:00 PM

exhausted!

exhausted!!

exhausted!!!

p/s: im not complaining..

Labels: common test.

annoyed;

Sunday, February 22, 2009/ 10:43:00 PM

annoyed!

stressed!

pissed off!

irritated!

i cant do this..

somebody please catch my tears..

Labels: broke down.

stress period;

Saturday, February 21, 2009/ 11:48:00 PM

EXAMS!

Labels: common test.

surreal;

Tuesday, February 17, 2009/ 7:56:00 PM

words. gestures.
thoughts. memories.

i know..
the more an individual cant figure something
the more they wanna find out
the more they wanna get their curiosity quenched.
they wanna get it solved.

im sorry..
i just cant be figured.
cause i cant be read easily like a book.
i will never let that happen.

now thats because i will never show..

cause its all about love..

♥ ms exquisite

Labels: short entry.

feels so right yet so wrong;

Monday, February 16, 2009/ 10:31:00 PM

confused. puzzled.

lost. uncertainty. numb.

i have no idea how do i pen this down.

things are getting complicated.

at the spur of the moment, i just wanna confess.

but yet again, i cant do it.

its not only hurting them.

but myself as well.

im trapped.

but they'll see me as the evil one.

this thing will never end..

dear you,
do you understand what im going through?

i didnt wish for this;
i have to face it still w/o you..

♥ ms exquisite

Labels: clueless.

dear heart;

Saturday, February 14, 2009/ 10:14:00 PM

take me away, a secret place

a sweet escape, take me away

take me away, to better days

take me away, a hiding place..

I bruise easily,

so be gentle when you handle me;

p/s: I'm learning to fall, with no safety net,

to cushion the blow

so be gentle..

♥ ms exquisite

Labels: scibbled thoughts..

valentine's day!;

/ 8:50:00 PM

im exhausted.

was out the whole day..

out early for my hockey friendly match

at Delta sports complex against NJC.

played a 30mins game with them

& yeah, i was hit badly.

summary.. (:

1st, NJC's team was a mix of boys + girls.

2nd, that jantan keparat with the PINK stick irritates me.

3rd, that right winger hit my left leg HARD.

4th, that jantan keparat hit me on the chin. *cheesecube..

5th, i cant walk properly.. ):

6th, i got a booboo on my legs and chin ):

after lunch, i head straight to suntec convention hall.

there were alot of people who went for the NTU seminar.

saw some of my hockey seniors there.

& yes, i miss them much.

then, i went to meet my family for dinner at Eunos.

ate.. talked.. yadayadayada.. (:

been quite some time since we did that.

i mean, with elder bro around..

went to Kovan superbowl.

know what!?

we played 2 games only.

the 4 siblings compete.

first game, i went from LAST to SECOND placing.

second game, i WON lah seyh!

woots! woots! (:

girl power..!

what a great day to spend 14th Feb..

with beloved family.. (:

p/s: no more 10 rounds.

sprints gila babi! lol.

your presence still lingers around me..

♥ ms exquisite

Labels: quality time.

today;

Friday, February 13, 2009/ 8:58:00 PM

Training was fun as usual.

But we had the year ones to join us today.

Farah & Sakina joined our training.

The others were out on their basics.

Today's training wasnt really tough.

Surprisingly, i dont feel tired at all.

But my left thighs are in pain..

i overstretched those muscles while sprinting.

serve me right!

lol.

and guess what?

i find myself crushing on this particular guy.

cant take my eyes off him.

so what? no big deal..

HAPPY ADV VALENTINES! (:

p/s: friendly match against NJC tmr morning
& NTU seminar at Suntec tmr.

i dont understand; you're still in my dreams..
& im still hoping; dont wanna fall to pieces..

♥ ms exquisite

Labels: short entry.

exhausted;

Thursday, February 12, 2009/ 9:02:00 PM

shaka lakalaka bom! shaka lakalaka bom!

shaka lakalaka bom!

hee! so random.

had my 2.4km today..

and that marks the end of our NAPFA test.

makes me wana lala~

woot! :D

its really challenging this year.

why? well, lets see..

our hockey teacher have set a target for us.

next, dear friends trust me to be their pacer..

but alhamdulillah.. :)

i manage to push them to the finishing line.

results? As and Bs.

you go, girlfriends!

im so proud that you guys made it!

especially together with me.

and like i said, never underestimate yourself.

aite?

and congrats mirah.R for scoring A

for all the stations, yes?

i only got 4 As and a B and a C.

hah!

MOVING ON..

V-day's coming real soon.

common test is just around the corner too!

needa mug hard, yes?

definitely lah!

tsk!

while walking home just now, saw these beautiful daisies

at a shop just across the street.

i cant stop looking at it..

anyone wanna get that for me? :(

pretty sia those white ones.

sheesh!

whatever lah dayah..

p/s: business management test tmr!

let it burn.. let it burn..
i dont wanna fall to pieces..

♥ ms exquisite

Labels: clueless.

choked;

Tuesday, February 10, 2009/ 10:27:00 PM

i feel numb.

i feel angry.

i feel stupid.

i feel fooled.

i feel hurt.

but still, whats done cant be undone.

maybe its just my fault for being stubborn.

maybe its just my fault for hoping too much.

maybe its time to really let go now.

but i know my heart still yearns for you.

hell.

you will suck the life out of me.

that is SO not gonna happen!

and yes, i hate you.

PERIOD.

on the other hand..

happy 9teenth to my beloved zack!

i love you mucho much!

more outings soon, yes?

i think i should let it burn..
though i know how much i need you.

♥ ms exquisite

Labels: i need to breathe..

contagious;

Sunday, February 8, 2009/ 1:46:00 PM

its so contagious
i cannot get it out of my mind
its so outrageous
you make me feel so high

all the time.

its a state of bliss; you think you're dreaming
its the happiness inside that you're feeling
its so beautiful it makes you wanna cry..

pls dont go away;
cause i need you now..

♥ ms exquisite

Labels: scibbled thoughts..

dedications;

Wednesday, February 4, 2009/ 9:49:00 PM

Dear diary..

first and foremost,
thanks much to one & all who wished
me on my 19th birthday (:
the friends who came for dinner,
Zack & Dar who treated me to swensens,
and to all other acquintances who wished.

and yes, i celebrated my birthday this year
errmmm.. 4x??
firstly, a date with TWIN.
Next, dinner with family & close friends.
Lunch with Zack & Dar at Swensens.
& dinner again with family.

was really fun!
& thanks much for the presents!
*HUGS!*

anyways..
things are a little pretty strange.
i dont know.
its getting more complicated.

i shant be bothered.
lets just go with the flow, yes?
common test are just around the corner!
sheesh!

you're finally there..
but things arent the same..

♥ ms exquisite

Labels: can you hear me calling out your name?