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Title: Life Story
Type: Highly Confidential

home sweet home;

Tuesday, January 27, 2009/ 3:08:00 PM

Dear diary..

im BACK!
(:

was away for a few days.
saya balik kampung lah!
been years since i last went there.
where?
Pengerang, Johor Bahru.
nama kampungnya, Batu Mas.
and no, there's no gold(emas) there ok?
(:

yes, thats the kampung.

the one that my family always slept over

whenever we go there (:

and this lil one's name is ZUHRIN.

a cousin who's only 5!

yet he knows about BGR.

lol!

believe me, he's shying away whenever he looked at me.

oh! he loves to sing!

he'll pester me for my mp3

to listen to his favourite songs and sing.

watch the video below (:

now you know what i mean?

hee! (:

he sang JATUH CINTA LAGI BY MATTA BAND.

and this lovely baby's name is NUR LIYANA.

a new family member in abg zambri's family.

and that's my aunt whom we stayed with.

she was at the pondok to cut the coconut

while bro and her grandson accompanied her.

ok im tired.

will update again later.

i think.

i have some research + reading to do.

i love you, much.

& i need you, do you know?

♥ ms exquisite

Labels: kampung visit.

faith;

Saturday, January 24, 2009/ 9:16:00 PM

Dear diary..

i always have faith

that things will get better.

cause i have never stopped praying

since the day that i lose hope.

cause i know HE will be there to show me the way.

when i thought things are going smoothly

i have to face the reality now.

i know i have never stopped praying

and finally, HE almost answered my prayers.

least did i know that HE was about to test me too.

2 shocking news in a day.

can i handle it?

the first, yes.

the second, i was shocked that i almost forgot

how to breathe.

thankfully izyan was there.

p/s: YAY! Balik kampong! (:

WEE!

Baby, where are you?
can you hear me calling out to you?

♥ ms exquisite

Labels: my world starts to swirl all over again..

that boy;

Friday, January 23, 2009/ 11:00:00 PM

Dear diary...

do you know this guy?

he's JEAN-BAPTISTE MAUNIER.

and yes, he's french.

ultrahot i must say..

oh yeah, he's 19 this year.

hee! (:

he's the actor who acted in the movie

LES CHORISTES.

its a really good movie.

you should watch.

he not only have that angelic face.

a superb voice too.

i wish i can sing and reach that high notes.

just like him (:

go watch HIM(click) sing!

p/s: i dont quite understand how this thing works.

its called FEELINGS..

all that i wish for my birthday this year is

you, baby..

♥ ms exquisite

Labels: french boy.

birthday girl;

Thursday, January 22, 2009/ 11:48:00 PM

Dear diary..

first and foremost,

i wanna wish AMIRAH R. happy 19th!

hope you've enjoyed the mini celebration

& the charade game today (:

hurhur!

saya sayang awak lah! (:

YADAYADAYADA..

the day end with much fun.

hang out with Apiz Y. and Handry at Yishun.

it was super fun.

thanks much korang! (:

and to mr A.H for being there, yes?

p/s: Happy Chinese New Year! (:

im still waiting..

do you know that my heart keeps mentioning your name?

♥ ms exquisite

random;

Monday, January 19, 2009/ 10:58:00 PM

Dear diary..

oh! found these..!

that day we went to marina barrage.

the experience of boarding the last train home.

lol!

baby, i cant deny this feeling..

say you love me the same way that i love you..

♥ ms exquisite

Labels: marina barrage

school life part 2;

/ 9:11:00 PM

Dear diary..

its the start of 2nd week of school.

how did it go?

well lets see.. (:

morning run, 10 rounds around the stadium.

at the end of the day, PE 5 rounds more + agilities.

so you tell me now.. (:

haha!

its equivalent to about 6km!

though i admit its torturous, its good for me, yes?

to build up on my stamina.

especially when i did not exercise for the past 2mths!

and all i did was eating CHOCOLATES! (:

i swear im damn tired.

but im doing this for a good cause, yes?

ok, so im not complaining here..

hee! (:

furthermore, i bet this is not all.

its only a start..

im so sure there's more to come, yes?

and all i gotta to do is PERSEVERE.

and UNCLE SAM, get well soon ok?

once you're ok, you can teman me study, yes?

yayness!! :D

sayang awak! (:

p/s: suddenly, this feeling creeps within me.

and as always, i will still remain ignorant of that feeling.

i will face it when the person is brave enough to admit..

you are my love; you cant see that

but i love you.. as always..

♥ ms exquisite

Labels: fitness

school life;

Friday, January 16, 2009/ 11:02:00 PM

Dear diary..

first week of school is up.
but it feels like its been weeks.
wow..
i swear its really tiring.
yes? ):

oh, guess what!? guess what!?
FITNESS has started.
DAMN!
had my 2.4km run yesterday.
hockey training, we had fitness as a start today.

and yes, my whole body is aching.
im super tired.
there's loads of assignments screaming for my attention.
haha! (:

p/s: 1o rounds around the school track

every monday morning.. (:

im still waiting for that day to arrive..

♥ ms exquisite

Labels: short entry.

unwell;

Wednesday, January 14, 2009/ 10:06:00 PM

Dear diary..

there's lots to do when it's only 2nd day of school.

i had to do a GP essay which accounts 50% of CT.

and i was really lost.

thankfully there's a forum on the topic i chose.

and yes, KUIH helped me alot.

but my sacrifice to turn in late was backfired.

i fell sick.

really really sick.

i didnt attend school today.

& my whole body's weak and my throat hurts alot, yes?

but i went to school for a moment to hand in my GP essay.

had to miss my hockey training.

it breaks my heart, really.

went down to the pitch before i leave school

to salam my coachie.

coachie asked about my presence for training.

i feel pressured when he said,

"you have to come for every training because YOU are one of the main players"

whoa.. im really scared.

can i cope..?

p/s: X is blogging the exact same way that i did.

Y is using the same lingo as me, yes?

i love you, yes i do..
& aku sedang menanti yang tidak pasti.

♥ ms exquisite

Labels: sick. really sick.

release of O level results;

Monday, January 12, 2009/ 10:41:00 PM

Dear diary..

today's the first day of school.

and i hate the first day of school.

feel so lethargic!

and yes, i dread going to school.

heh. (:

mr casanova bf took his O level results today.

he did ok, i suppose?

but i cant deny that im abit disappointed.

however, im sure he did tried his best.

and i hope that he'll get the course that he wanted.

anyways, HE text me hours ago.

i was shocked as i read his text.

i do feel sorry for his loss.

but i dont get the meaning of him telling me about it.

as much as i want to reply his text, i refrain myself.

maybe its not the right thing to do.

p/s: i just dont know anymore..

i still do love you. just too much..

but maybe, its just right to remain ignorant

of my own feelings..

♥ ms exquisite

Labels: school reopens.

online movies;

Friday, January 9, 2009/ 10:57:00 PM

Dear diary..

guess what? uncle sam just send a few picts.
our trip to Afamosa, Melaka.
didnt get all of 'em though.
cause apparently abg Asri is compiling 'em.
so ima show a few here, aites?

ok.. Abg Asri snapped this picture.
so, he's not in it. Duh~
oh! His birthday also falls on 1st feb.
awesomeness..! (:
anyway, this pict was taken dekat depan bangalow yang kita menginap (:

ok, this picture was gerek. lol!
cousins at their crazy period?
i dont know.
this picture was taken at the big field of Dataran Pahlawan Mall.

and this was taken on the first day we hit the pool.
at the back of the bangalow.
coolness, yes? (:
but the place has its flaws too and its TOTALLY profiteering there.
really.

YADAYADAYADA;

today i spent my day watching movies online.

thanks to kuih lah.

apparently he was watching movie online first.

and he tempt me.

so.. WALA!

movie #1

ok, this movie is funny.

but a lil disgusting though.

warning!

dont eat while watching this movie ok.

seriously. heed my advise.

but overall, not bad..

movie #2

ok.. i didnt get to watch this movie when its out.

i just watched it.

dont laugh at me ok.

laugh WITH me.

AHAHAHAHAHAH.

ok lame. :D

the movie's great.

movie #3

this movie is OLD.

believe me.

and i just got the chance to watch it.

NOW.

ok, toodles noodles!

*off to watch this clip*

i dont wanna play the broken-hearted girl.
i love you. i do..

♥ ms exquisite

Labels: movies.

note-to-self;

/ 2:49:00 PM

Dear diary..

im suppose to be out with Aini & Amirah R today.

out for bag hunting for school.

mum was reluctant to let me go last night.

but it happens that she's down with high fever today.

hence, im stuck at home yet again.

i didnt have the heart to leave her alone.

anyways, past few nights have been AWESOOMMEE!

thanks to those 4 fabulous people.

oh! we have nicknames for each other now.

hehe!

namely, paedophile, kuih, pisang aka uncle jj & uncle sam.

yes, they're all guys! except me.

lol!

and we even came up with stupid games due to boredom.

still, its fun and AWESOME..!

lol!

on the sad note, uncle sam was right.

when i am P, i dont show.

wow, seems like you know me well eyh?

sayang awak lah!

school's starting pretty soon.

& yes, im not ready.

i dont have my running shoes.

neither a bagpack!

oh shucks!

p/s: nobody ever said life is easy.

there's ups and downs.

its not a matter of what you went through

neither what you are feeling.

its a matter of how you handle it.

how you turn it around to make it something positive..

it has never been easy but i do love you, till now.

in silence..

♥ ms exquisite

Labels: life.

just another beautiful story;

Thursday, January 8, 2009/ 9:53:00 PM

Dear diary..

nobody said it would be easy.

no matter what people say, in the end,

its their call.

and yes, being a third party is hard too.

knowing both sides of the story.

understand but dont know what to do.

of course, as a friend, i want the best for my friends.

but still, as i said..

its their call..

Once upon a time there was an island where all the feelings lived; happiness, sadness, knowledge, and all the others, including love.

One day it was announced to all of the feelings that the island was going to sink to the bottom of the ocean. So all the feelings prepared their boats to leave. Love was the only one that stayed. She wanted to preserve the island paradise until the last possible moment. When the island was almost totally under, Love decided it was time to leave. She began looking for someone to ask for help.

Just then Richness was passing by in a grand boat. Love asked, "Richness, Can I come with you on your boat?" Richness answered, " I'm sorry, but there is a lot of silver and gold on my boat and there would be no room for you anywhere." Then Love decided to ask Vanity for help who was passing in a beautiful vessel. Love cried out, "Vanity, help me please."

"I can't help you", Vanity said, "You are all wet and will damage my beautiful boat." Next, Love saw Sadness passing by. Love said, "Sadness, please let me go with you." Sadness answered, "Love, I'm sorry, but, I just need to be alone now." Then, Love saw Happiness.

Love cried out, " Happiness, please take me with you." But Happiness was so overjoyed that he didn't hear Love calling to him. Love began to cry.

Then, she heard a voice say, "Come Love, I will take you with me." It was an elder. Love felt so blessed and overjoyed that she forgot to ask the elder his name. When they arrived on land the elder went on his way. Love realized how much she owed the elder.

Love then found Knowledge and asked, "Who was it that helped me?" "It was Time", Knowledge answered. "But why did Time help me when no one else would?", Love asked.

Knowledge smiled and with deep wisdom and sincerity, answered,
"Because only Time is capable of understanding how great Love is."

p/s: cinta itu tidak semestinya memiliki..

because my love for you is real.

♥ ms exquisite

Labels: relationship

my loss & my gain;

Wednesday, January 7, 2009/ 6:27:00 PM

Dear diary..

i had to miss the sentosa outing with my hockey babes.
firstly, mum wants me home.
secondly, im still sick.
cough + running nose is not going away..
well, its really sad.
but im looking at the positive side though.

though i spend my time rotting at home,
uncle sam's company really fills my day.
oh! did i mention he loves to gimme advise?
hurhur!
what a nice chap!
but he's only 20 lahh..
not really an uncle.

and guess what?
he's really good at getting info about me.
birthdays and all, without me informing him.
dangerous eyh?
cunning, maybe?
haa! no matter, sayang awak lah cousin! (:

p/s: thanks for trying to get the movie that i want to watch, uncle sam!
and thanks for the songs mr Aliff! (:

on the sad note, goodbye mr eyecandy..
i cant send you off tonight..
but im gonna miss you much.
come back real soon, yes?
*HUGS!*

i'll do whatever it takes to have you, baby..

♥ ms exquisite

Labels: much love from me to you (:

the one that i want;

Monday, January 5, 2009/ 11:37:00 PM

Dear diary..

guess what! guess what! guess what!!

i've got that watch that i wanted!

woohoo!

that Baby G watch.

but i got myself the yellow one.

not the black/pink that i wanted.

because the yellow one look nicer on me.

really!

the one that i wanted looks funny.

lol!

im super happy, can?

hurhur!

now all that i need is that samsung pixon.

like really badly..

i love you.

baby come back..

♥ ms exquisite

Labels: that Baby G watch.

those silly people;

Saturday, January 3, 2009/ 7:46:00 PM

Dear diary..

i dont know if it's just me or them.

i dont look like an ang moh do i, people?

please enlighten me..

for the umpteen time im saying this.

i am a MALAY. a pure malay, that is.

why do people think im a eurasian?

sccuuuuuse me?

most irritating part comes along when actually,

they can see that im with my parents!

mum, who's wearing a tudung.

dad, who obviously looked like a malay.

what the hell people?

so tell me.

is it really me or is it you?

once, a girl came up to me and said,

"oh? you're a malay??"

and i was like..

"yeahh.. why?" feeling embarrased.

and she asnwered..

"nahh, you dont look like a malay.

surprised when you actually speak malay"

and that was during a competition.

we became friends since but they labelled me

as that "eurasian girl".

wow. should i be proud?

and just now, went to eat at tampines with parents.

ordered some food and the person was mesmerized.

she looked at me and said,

"wahh.. blue eyes arh. very nice lehh"

i felt so paiseh and i think she's dumb in a way.

"its contact lense.." i answered her sheepishly.

the best part was mum was just beside me.

oh my gosh! so obvious isnt it?

and i just wanna know is she really dumb?

or she just want to bodek2 me because i ordered

food from her stall.

i dare not go back.

she was so mesmerized by either my eyes or me.

told mum to collect the food then.

wow..

so to my dearie friends reading this post,

TELL ME.

what was your first impression when 'yall first saw me?

i DO look like a malay.

right?

please englighten me

cause i dont know if i should be proud or sad.

haha!

i aint angry about those comments.

just confused of my physical features.

and the way i look.

its best if i remain ignorant of the way i feel for you, boy.

♥ ms exquisite

Labels: eurasian girl?

new year;

Thursday, January 1, 2009/ 3:00:00 PM

Dear diary..

i cant believe that it's already 2009.

wow..

time flies, ey?

a month more and im turning 19.

sighh..

anyway, happy new year!

and to my beloved Khairi, happy 18th!

i despise you for the whole world's countdown

to your birthday.

every year without fail.

grrr..!

and the best part of each new year's eve is,

spending time with beloved people.

and alot of funny things that happened.

for 2years now. without fail.

my nephew.. (:

p/s: im looking forward for 2009 now (:

Dec 2007

Dec 2008

i cant help falling in love..
pls stop me..

♥ ms exquisite

Labels: happy new year(: